today am thinking

today i'm thinking

and re-thinking the things i had thought

and wondering if i thought them right

because on the outcome of my earlier thought

i have built my present life and thought

i think i thought right sometimes

when my thought agrees with the rhythm of life

and i think i thought wrong

when everything runs askew and rhythms shatter

then i question my thought and how i think it

then i ask the questions that make me think again.

what if i thought wrong or i thought the wrong thoughts

for questions come into my mind that question my thought

and i think them off because i have no answers

or because i am still trying to get answers for the ones i thought.

today i'm thinking 

why does life have to be this way

why are we complaining and breeding

why does God just sit and watch

can my mom and dad see me messing up the thoughts they too thought

today i'm thinking

perhaps it is better to just live

there will be enough time to think later

somehow i should be able to figure it into eternity

today i thought

when will i be truly happy again

like i was as a child?